My last post was in early December. This is because I was headed down into a deep, dark, cold abyss. It was the next abyss of learning to be stronger and more aligned with who I really am. I don’t like it much. It’s not fun but somehow I keep on going and use my tools the One Brain System has given me and I come out the other side stronger and more clear and better able to focus on the next step on my path to creating the life I really want.
I used to suffer in silence and isolation but since 18 months ago and a situation that occurred with my step-son I’ve learned to reach out for help and vocalize my feelings even if I’m not completely understanding them and worst of all I’m ashamed I have those feelings at all. Any so another event occurred with my stepson in early December. I’ve realized just today that this recent event could have served as a test. But because I wasn’t completely whole on certain issues of my strength it served as yet one more deep, penetrating learning curve to help me clear out the old patterns and endeavor to create newer and healthier new ones.
It is difficult for me to write when I’m not clear headed and not understanding or able to see the bigger picture. I move through day to day stuff okay but not much gets done on the picture framework of my life except what absolutely needs to and this blog isn’t on the ‘absolutely needs to be done’ list during these deep healing times. I use the tools of the One Brain System to keep me going so I don’t end up sinking into a depression or making rash choices that I’ll regret. I simply keep going and make little choices and soon the old patterns fall away and I can see more clearly than before— both actual physical sight and “third eye” sight. I feel more refreshed as well, like after a violent thunderstorm has passed and the sun as come out. The air smells cleaned by the zaps of lightening and everything just looks more brilliant, shiny and new. I definitely feel that today.
I have more mountains to climb to heal my life and create it anew. My body held up pretty well during this recent healing. I remember when these deep healing times would come when my physical body was the subject for healing and it wouldn’t fair as well. It always felt like I was going backwards. I can now see after this recent event that it wasn’t backwards at all. My body was being shook up and it only felt like backwards because I so longed for my health. I guess that’s why things slow down so much when I go through a healing crisis such as this past two months. Now it’s my life that is being healed and so I guess I can’t move ahead until the road blocks are cleared.
I wonder whether other people experience these healing crisis’s for whatever ails them. I only know that this is how I have learned to get myself and my life better and I seem to make more progress in the long run if I allow the time and space for these healing times.
I’m working on creating a personal still life for my next art project. I think I can see why it’s been so frustrating. It’s personal and so it’s dredging up some personal issues. It has to be constructed of things that represent who I am right now. When I was working on locating these things—rather quickly on Monday morning before class– I ended up with finding the only shoe-box I had—the project is called “Boxing yourself”—that says “New Balance” on it. I took it to class but forgot the most important piece—my camera. I came home and continued to work with it, getting rid of that ugly box. Now I look over at the still life I finally created well after class yesterday as it is sitting on the living floor and the old box is once again a part of it. Why? As I’m writing this I’ve just become aware of the reason. It’s because I noticed while playing with my personal items to create the still life again, for something like the 10th time, that the side of the box says “achieve New Balance”. I thought, when I saw that last night, ‘dumb ass’ I said to myself. ‘That’s who you are—always trying to achieve new balance.’ Putting a hiking shoe into the combination of things also made me realize that it was complete now. The camera, the hiking boot, paint brushes, a purple pen, the Joyce Kilmer tree wood section, a seashell and two candles. That’s who I am and what I’m doing right now and it’s how I work to achieve new balance. I walk the beach and the woods, I paint, I write and I take photos of it all and the process of it all. These things connect me with the spirit of who I am—represented by the candles. It always feels, no matter what I’m doing that I’m “hiking” it. Sometimes it feels like up hill and then sometimes it feels like I’m coasting going down the other side. But I will climb every mountain to find that next level of better balance. I don’t know why but it’s who I am and it’s what feels right to me.
Now that I’m back and stronger and better than two months ago, I’ll suit up in my hiking boots and get back on the trail.
Author: Bethann Vetter
Bethann Vetter is a Holistic Therapist, Medium and Teacher. She uses frequency balancing tools via her Mediumship in Trance skills to locate and provide the frequencies your unique set of imbalances requires. She uses her own subtle energy body technique, Epigenetic Reprogramming to help you clear subconscious level blocks. Frequency Specific Microcurrent is used for specific cellular level healing. Classes are available in active meditation skills such as mediumship and trance healing skills. Trance Healing sessions called QHHT© are also offered. Her frequency balancing ability works similar to the way Edgar Cayce worked. She tunes in to your issues and provides you with the necessary information, substances you might need as well as adjusting your frequency to a higher harmonic level. Her work is done by appointment only at a distance or in her office in Jacksonville Beach, FL.